The key word for you to use, from now on, to determine your succes, is "how?" How can I make this happen? How can I pay that bill? What else could I do? How could I do it?
The word "how" pre-supposes a solution is available. It makes the assumption that if you desire an outcome, you can get that outcome.
"How" needs to be at the beginning of the primary questions you ask yourself. There are other, powerful questions, and for right now, start with this one.